March 7th, 2010
I OBSESS over health and fitness damnit. Its driving me crazy. I used to be dedicated to bodybuilding and nutrition, and i would spend countless hours researching how to stay in perfect shape, revising and revising my workout plans and diet, etc. Then one day i said f*ck my health, and quit everything all together. It took me awhile to completely quit obsessing over my body and health, but i eventually completely forgot about it. And for the next year I felt so relieved. I finally felt like i was living. But then after six months of smoking, frying my skin in the sun, and getting overweight, my body image finally started to kind of bother me again. So here i am obsessing over how to be a perfectionist at having a top notch body. I HATE IT DAMNIT. Haha, i was wondering if this was just a problem i had, or if theres others out there like me. I wish i could just forget about appearance completely and live my life.
Well, I’m not quite to the point you are, but I’m somewhere in the same ball park. I’m on yahoo answers all the time trying to learn as much as I can about fitness and like you, I keep revising my exercise program (which is stupid because I was seeing lots of results with my old program) but I just can’t stop. I feel like I need to know anything and everything to make the perfect decisions about health/weight loss/fitness. I’m not even fat, or even close! I’m in pretty darn good shape, I just want to tone my body lol. I hate it too, man. I’m glad I care about being healthy and all that, but sometimes I just take things too far.
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